Being Bobby Brown Jr.

Guess Who's Back!!!!

I know its been a minute and I've been saying im coming back to blogland for over a year but I can honestly say im ready to come back. As you can see we've MOVED to a new location (that i'm loving much better than blogger) Please bare with me as I try to make the page look pretty :) I'm also moving some of my (and yours) favorite posts from the other page. For the people who are new to my page, I encourage you to read through some of my old post which will give a pretty good idea of who I am and what I'm about. If you were a regular reader of the other page, welcome back! During my absence, I noticed a LOT of new blogs have popped up. Many of them are pretty interesting while more of them are not (which is simply my opinion) I'm looking very forward to reconnecting with my blogland community and sharing my life/experiences on a whole new level. Needless to say a WHOLE BUNCH OF SHIT has happened in my life since I stopped blogging regularly so I have a LOT to catch you up on. Trust me ALL will be revealed as I plan to share the good, bad and ugly..lol..I wanna thank each of you who've checked on me via email or phone. Your love has definitely been a source of inspiration and I really appreciate it. A special shoutout to Derrick L. Briggs who is definitely doin the damn thing with his bookclub. I had the opportunity to attend his last discussion a couple of weeks ago & I must say I was pleasantly surprise and more importantly very impressed. Despite the multitude of HATE thrown in Derricks direction, he's managed to rise above it while continuing to grow and make a difference which is definitely more than I can say about the majority of his haters. The discussion was enlightening, engaging and at times erotic :) The eye candy was delicious and the location was perfect. Keep up the good work Derrick! I also definitely gotta shoutout my new stepson Marcus aka Marz..I'm back baby...and last but not least Antar aka No4Real4Real, I havent 4got about u nigga..call me..Ok now that I've gotten through the warm fuzzy stuff, I need to get back to making this page look pretty....

HELL NO!! I'm NOT TURNING DOWN MY LIGHT 4 U

DISCLAIMER: This post is dedicated to what Kanye West calls 'The Dreamkillers' or what i call HATERS. We all have them (some more than others) and i've accepted the reality that they aint going away anytime soon. I've also learned how NOT to allow them to steal my joy or make me turn down the light that shines within me. Warning-this piece contains a few bad words :) (after all we are talkin to the haters)

WHAT??? u want me to turn down my light for you? why b/c the brightness reminds u of how much u don't like yourself or b/c it makes you uncomfortable to be around somebody who does. i know u are intimidated by my honesty b/c u surround yourself with people (your so called friends and sometimes family) who support your drama by constantly lying to you b/c they are afraid to hurt your feelings. I've heard you say "he's too much" and "he thinks he's all that" when referring to me and you know what I FULLY AGREE! I am too much in fact I'm more than too much I'M MUCH MORE! and since when did they start giving our mind reading degrees? (please share the knowledge cuz i need to get me one of those) You can't tell me what i THINK until you've been in my head but for the record, I DO THINK I'M ALL THAT b/c if I didn't WHO WOULD? (i know i cant count on u for that) i can't help the fact that my light shines bright where ever i go and people notice it. the thing you fail to understand is THAT IS NOT MY ISSUE! I DON'T CARE if people notice it, are uncomfortable with it, don't like it, etc. THAT'S THEIR PROBLEM & THEIR WORK TO DO...i'm ok with me and besides i'm working with a GIFT given to me by my creator and it FORCES me to shine. I'm not scared and will NEVER be afraid of you b/c he ALWAYS has my back and he ALWAYS takes care of me. so do me a favor, stop hating and start trying to figure out how u can turn up your light instead of letting other people keep it dim. stop hating and maybe you can actually digest some of the positive energy it gives off that you've missed b/c of your hate, stop trying to engage others in your hate b/c they see something you don't and while yes you will find a few others like yourself with dim lights, you are gonna run into many more people with lights that are bright (sometimes brighter than mine!)in case you hadn't noticed, i'm not going anywhere and to answer your question, HELL NO! I'm NOT TURNING DOWN MY LIGHT FOR YOU! Last but certainly not least, i have a motto by which i live my life and I want to share it with you to help you better understand how to relate to me going forward. My motto is "LIKE ME OR LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!" Good luck on your journey to find peace....

FREE (My New Anthem)

'ain't no feeling like being FREE...when yo minds made up and yo heart is in the right place' Destiny's Child

ok so i finally decided to do this blog thing and im wondering now if my timing is a little off. why? well let's see...

less than 24 hours ago, i ended a relationship with the person i thought (and still do) was the love of my life, i also recently made my unplanned summer visit to washington, dc official by becomin a resident, i heard from my book agent this week that apparently we are very close to solidifying a pretty healthy book deal with a major publishing house and last but certainly not least....the company i started back in jan is well on its way to becoming the empire i've always dreamed about.....

yea so the space im in right now can't be described in words...lets just say i'm still breathin and that's more than enough to keep me goin although for the first time in a mighty long time, i cried myself to sleep last nite. when i finally got up this mornin, it looked like somebody punched me in both of my eyes or i had a nasty allergic reaction to some raw fish (which i recently learned im allergic to)

anyway in spite of that and all of the other bullshit life attempts to force down my throat i remain grateful b/c things could always be worse. and trust me i know about worse (but thats a topic for another post...stay tuned) i've learned (the hard way of course) that life is way too short to waste even a second on being depressed or down in the dumps. i VALUE my time and i'm always extremely aware of how its spent.

the blogging world is not a "new" thing for me. there are a few that i visit on a daily basis. in fact i've found reading them to be highly addictive so i make it a rule to read no more than 2 entries per blog/per day...anyway i digress..more than one person (including my book agent)has suggested i start one but since my plate is so crowded with all the stuff mentioned above, and my time is so limited, blogging didnt show up on my radar screen of priorities until i got a text from eric aka Dizyaboy (a friend who recently started bloggin) askin me to check out his new site .

eric and i have know each other since birth..(literally, our mothers were pregnant together) we have very similiar characteristics and we've been told my many (including members of our family) that we are a lot alike and i happen to agree to a certain extent. one of the MAJOR differences can be summed up in one phrase...I'm an open book and he's a closed casket...now b4 u make that mean somethin that it doesnt, allow me to briefly explain (trust me the story is long & will definitly be the topic of a future post..stay tuned)

'im an open book' translation i'm very comfortable with this thing i like to call my life. i've worked through many of the self-hate issues black men tend to have and most of all im authentic and i live my life in authenticity (for the slow people authentic means REAL)

'he's a closed casket' translation eric is non-emotional or what i like to call not the 'warm fuzzy type' up till now he hasnt really worked through some of the issues that caused him not to be in tuned with his emotions so he comes off to many as cold.

hopefully the translations r clear (if not stay tuned for more later) the whole point of what has now become of paragraph of blah blah is I WAS INSPIRED BY ERIC'S BLOGSPOT TO START MY OWN....THANK YOU ERIC AND KNOW THAT I LOVE U and I'm very proud of you.

so to sum up this first entry, i want to prepare u for what u can expect from beingbobbybrownjr.blogspot.com....

honesty without regard 4 feelings, inspiration, humor and most of all an up and very personal view of what it's like being bobby brown jr

please bare with me as i try to figure out how to make this site look interesting..